Monday, November 1, 2010

Going with gut

I'm no scientist, but I do believe in evil in the world.
I think it is possible that some diseases spawn off of some sort of mind testing sanity and torment.
Jon Stewart is the number 1 person I would target right now who is the biggest predator in trying to drive me insane to "Parkinson's" disease. I think it is Jon who is responsible for being the tormentor. I get in his face as usual. He can dish it out but he isn't the type who can take it back.
Anyway, I request that people of authority keep an eye on him and do not let him get away with predatory acts just because he has money and is a celebrity.

I hate to beat myself up over stupid things, but I think my main boss was trying to give me a little break, and I hate how I responded to him. He said: "Do you want to start on the phones tomorrow?" I should have just said "yes," to dive into it, but it has been since 2007 since I worked there, and I do not have that long of a memory recall in working there for only a couple of months.
I hate that I talked stupidly of myself, but what I should have said: "My memory is not perfect." Its not that I'm dumb, but even in flaws I'm really not unconfident. I'm fine.
I have noticed others and think that some people take it to the extreme when it concerns flaws and mishaps.
The job is a lot of info to take in at once. It is three weeks worth of training.

I do feel that people are literally and seriously trying to go for my mind; mentality; maybe even emotions or psychologically to attack and distress me. Again, it isn't unusual, but I hate that people can get away with their sadistic cheats.

I had some opportunity to express where I stand a little, but as I ignore other people in their sadism, I think they ignore me in truthful expression.
I see very obvious supremacy from a couple of people through some statements they make.
Even though I won't be dominated by them or there stupid judgemental obsessions, I promote individuality, not supremacy.
I know people do read into everything. In a slight of fairness, people are at least not harassing me with "being delusional," but at the same time, I feel hawkeyed by pretty much everyone knitpicking over everything. They read into so many things that are not meant to be read into, and I hate feeling how difficult it is to have any say when some people make their assumptions. I just kind of sit there hoping they won't get big-headed over their opinions and assumptions, or that I won't be cheated just because someone has an opinion or assumption.
It is just the obsessions and torment of some people that I think people of authority need to work harder at resolving and concluding.

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