It is my mother's life in danger. I do not understand why a place would have the resources to give me info but yet not be able to do anything about it.
Yes, my mother I would consider to be abusive. I don't take back anything I have said negatively about her. Same with my sister and parents.
HOWEVER
As angry as I get at their authoritarianism and being control freaks, I do not want them to die.
I have wanted us to be separated.
Even though I have had to endure suffering and torment because of them, I still would not wish them to die.
I FUCKING HATE THE NAZI'S WHO WANT TO KILL THEM JUST BECAUSE THEY "DON'T HAVE THE PERFECT DNA." FUCK THE FUCKING NAZIS. FUCK THE KARMA GAMERS WHO MAY HAVE SOMEHOW BEEN EFFECTED WITH WHAT A FAMILY MEMBER COULD HAVE DONE.
DO I THINK MY FAMILY SHOULD NOT HAVE TO LIVE BY THE LAW LIKE ANY OTHER? NO. THEY SHOULD BE TREATED JUST AS CIVILLY AS ANY OTHER CITIZEN.
IT IS WRONG FOR WHAT THEY HAVE DONE.
MY MOTHER IS THE SPECIFIC ONE WHO IS IN DANGER. SHE NEEDS HELP. SHE HAS BEEN ABUSIVE BUT I DON'T CARE. I'M NOT MAD ENOUGH AT HER ARROGANCE AND HATE WHERE I THINK SHE SHOULD DIE. I'VE SAID HATEFUL THINGS TOO, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I WANT HER TO LITERALLY DIE.
I WANT US ALL TO BE SEPARATE FROM EACH OTHER. OUR LIVES ARE ABNORMAL COMPARED TO OTHER FAMILIES LIVES.
WE SHOULD NOT HAVE TO LIVE TOGETHER OR HAVE OUR LIVES COMMUNISTICALLY CONTROLLED WHERE WE HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BECAUSE SOME COMMIES ARE DOOMING OUR FINANCES AND FREEDOM.
SOME LEADERS AND PEOPLE WHO WORK AS REGULARS IN OUR MATRIX SHOULD HAVE A BETTER IDEA OF US BY NOW TO MAKE BETTER JUDGEMENT WHEN IT CONCERNS OUR INDIVIDUAL LIVES.
IT IS EITHER JOSH MYRON OR THE D ATRIS (ESPECIALLY BOB D ATRI WHO I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE IN PERSON) WHO WANT TO KILL MY MOM. THERE IS A NAZI OUT THERE WHO WANTS HER TO DIE.
I NEED HELP TO FIND SOMEONE TO PROTECT HER. TO ALSO KEEP ME INDEPENDENT OF HER. AND HOPEFULLY A WAY WHERE SHE CAN BE INDEPENDENT OF ME.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Going with gut
I'm no scientist, but I do believe in evil in the world.
I think it is possible that some diseases spawn off of some sort of mind testing sanity and torment.
Jon Stewart is the number 1 person I would target right now who is the biggest predator in trying to drive me insane to "Parkinson's" disease. I think it is Jon who is responsible for being the tormentor. I get in his face as usual. He can dish it out but he isn't the type who can take it back.
Anyway, I request that people of authority keep an eye on him and do not let him get away with predatory acts just because he has money and is a celebrity.
I hate to beat myself up over stupid things, but I think my main boss was trying to give me a little break, and I hate how I responded to him. He said: "Do you want to start on the phones tomorrow?" I should have just said "yes," to dive into it, but it has been since 2007 since I worked there, and I do not have that long of a memory recall in working there for only a couple of months.
I hate that I talked stupidly of myself, but what I should have said: "My memory is not perfect." Its not that I'm dumb, but even in flaws I'm really not unconfident. I'm fine.
I have noticed others and think that some people take it to the extreme when it concerns flaws and mishaps.
The job is a lot of info to take in at once. It is three weeks worth of training.
I do feel that people are literally and seriously trying to go for my mind; mentality; maybe even emotions or psychologically to attack and distress me. Again, it isn't unusual, but I hate that people can get away with their sadistic cheats.
I had some opportunity to express where I stand a little, but as I ignore other people in their sadism, I think they ignore me in truthful expression.
I see very obvious supremacy from a couple of people through some statements they make.
Even though I won't be dominated by them or there stupid judgemental obsessions, I promote individuality, not supremacy.
I know people do read into everything. In a slight of fairness, people are at least not harassing me with "being delusional," but at the same time, I feel hawkeyed by pretty much everyone knitpicking over everything. They read into so many things that are not meant to be read into, and I hate feeling how difficult it is to have any say when some people make their assumptions. I just kind of sit there hoping they won't get big-headed over their opinions and assumptions, or that I won't be cheated just because someone has an opinion or assumption.
It is just the obsessions and torment of some people that I think people of authority need to work harder at resolving and concluding.
I think it is possible that some diseases spawn off of some sort of mind testing sanity and torment.
Jon Stewart is the number 1 person I would target right now who is the biggest predator in trying to drive me insane to "Parkinson's" disease. I think it is Jon who is responsible for being the tormentor. I get in his face as usual. He can dish it out but he isn't the type who can take it back.
Anyway, I request that people of authority keep an eye on him and do not let him get away with predatory acts just because he has money and is a celebrity.
I hate to beat myself up over stupid things, but I think my main boss was trying to give me a little break, and I hate how I responded to him. He said: "Do you want to start on the phones tomorrow?" I should have just said "yes," to dive into it, but it has been since 2007 since I worked there, and I do not have that long of a memory recall in working there for only a couple of months.
I hate that I talked stupidly of myself, but what I should have said: "My memory is not perfect." Its not that I'm dumb, but even in flaws I'm really not unconfident. I'm fine.
I have noticed others and think that some people take it to the extreme when it concerns flaws and mishaps.
The job is a lot of info to take in at once. It is three weeks worth of training.
I do feel that people are literally and seriously trying to go for my mind; mentality; maybe even emotions or psychologically to attack and distress me. Again, it isn't unusual, but I hate that people can get away with their sadistic cheats.
I had some opportunity to express where I stand a little, but as I ignore other people in their sadism, I think they ignore me in truthful expression.
I see very obvious supremacy from a couple of people through some statements they make.
Even though I won't be dominated by them or there stupid judgemental obsessions, I promote individuality, not supremacy.
I know people do read into everything. In a slight of fairness, people are at least not harassing me with "being delusional," but at the same time, I feel hawkeyed by pretty much everyone knitpicking over everything. They read into so many things that are not meant to be read into, and I hate feeling how difficult it is to have any say when some people make their assumptions. I just kind of sit there hoping they won't get big-headed over their opinions and assumptions, or that I won't be cheated just because someone has an opinion or assumption.
It is just the obsessions and torment of some people that I think people of authority need to work harder at resolving and concluding.
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